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I walked out of work today for the last time.
Finals are graded. Classroom is clean. Keys turned in. There is nothing left for me there.
And I feel.... finally at peace with the circumstances.
I'm still a little sad. I'm still a lot scared.
I had an epiphany as to why I was so panicked before. Actually, my husband had it. With a sprinkle of my sister's wisdom too. And a side of a good friend butt kicking, stop-feeling-sorry-for-yourself talking to.
When I called my sister hysterical, and I told her: "I just taught my last class!" her retort was "No, you didn't. You just taught your last class at your job. You will teach again."
And my good friend said: "Stop thinking of this as permanent. It's not. You are home for now. And you define the 'now.'"
And my husband said: "Of course you are upset. You define yourself as a teacher. And now you aren't one. Now you can be whatever you want."
So......I'm a blank slate. And I get to define 'now.'
I'm getting T-shirts made with these two sayings.
I walked out of work today for the last time.
Finals are graded. Classroom is clean. Keys turned in. There is nothing left for me there.
And I feel.... finally at peace with the circumstances.
I'm still a little sad. I'm still a lot scared.
I had an epiphany as to why I was so panicked before. Actually, my husband had it. With a sprinkle of my sister's wisdom too. And a side of a good friend butt kicking, stop-feeling-sorry-for-yourself talking to.
When I called my sister hysterical, and I told her: "I just taught my last class!" her retort was "No, you didn't. You just taught your last class at your job. You will teach again."
And my good friend said: "Stop thinking of this as permanent. It's not. You are home for now. And you define the 'now.'"
And my husband said: "Of course you are upset. You define yourself as a teacher. And now you aren't one. Now you can be whatever you want."
So......I'm a blank slate. And I get to define 'now.'
I'm getting T-shirts made with these two sayings.
